Hello again.

Hello.

It’s been awhile.

Where have I been? Here. And a million miles away.  Sitting at my computer in coffee shops typing words I longed to shout from the rooftops. And curled up in my bed cowering in caverns of darkness and corners of fear.  Facing dragons I suppose I’ve been preparing to fight all my life – facing the rejection I was assured would not wait for me. Facing failure. Facing isolation. Facing me. Facing Him.

A break for me

Hi friends!

 This is going to be my last post for awhile!

If you’ve been reading my blog for any amount of time (even for a day) you know it’s been a messy, bumpy ride.

I’ve wrestled with sin and scripture and repentance and faith with all of you for a long time and it’s time to have a season where He & I get to do that without posted words or published posts.  I think seasons away from ministry are good for all of us, and I’m thankful that I have the opportunity to take a break and rest in Him while surrounded by my amazing community.

When peace is the enemy of God

A long long time ago, there was a man name Jehu who was sent to overthrow the kings of Judah and Israel.  They learned he was coming and so they set out in their chariots to meet him and plead for peace.  And his reply was simple:

“What peace can there be, so long as the whorings and the sorceries of your mother Jezebel are so many?” (2 Kings 9:21-22 ESV)

Hmm… Nice job with the Gospel-centered response, Jehu. 

Except, it really is a Gospel centered response. See, there was a pattern with the people of Israel and Judah.

My terrifying treasure

My computer battery has 13% as I start to write this blog post.

Reason says to wait until it is charged.  Logic says that I have a folder of drafts that I could share with you.  My common sense says that the thought I want to share is not fleshed out enough, not polished enough to share in this brief moment, (not when only 10% remains now.)

But I can’t breathe in and out right now without a catch in my breath at the glory of the Gospel.

This truth we call the Gospel – guys – it is insane. Offensive. Confusing. Terrifying.

Just this

Just this, fabs.

This is all you have to do right now.  Be. And sit. And rest. And wait.

You don’t have to do tomorrow yet. Just slow down and stop scrambling to get ahead of whatever might be around the corner.  There are hard things there for sure.  Tomorrow holds challenges and obstacles, but today has obstacles enough of its own: starting with the challenge to be in today and not tomorrow.

You don’t have to do yesterday, with all its bumps and bruises and pain and failure and frustrations – that is not what you have to do today.  You just have to do this moment. Maybe how you feel about yesterday is a part of this moment, but yesterday itself is gone.