Yup. That’s right folks.
I am my own worst nightmare.
I am ‘boy-crazy’, but before you judge me, let me explain what I mean:
- I am addicted to the thought of something exciting and new; a different future.
- I am addicted to living in a world where I get to enjoy all the excitement and exhilaration of new potential without any of the real danger of being hurt or known or disappointed.

1. Fight for today. I believe that I have everything I need for life and Godliness. Today, God has written my life perfectly for me to know Him better and reflect Him more clearly today. I don’t want to waste today. I will never have it again.
I will never again have the unique joys and the unique pains of today. I will never again get to have the to-do list I have today. I will never again get to be in the exact place I am today: missing my dad, confused about my identity, alone and afraid and yet excited and sure about God’s great hold on me.
I don’t want to waste this day.
I think the worst thing about ‘potential-addiction’ is that it keeps you convinced that the main joy of today is found in thinking about tomorrow and because of that it keeps you paralyzed from exploiting the present for the glory of God.
2. Cultivate potential-addiction. Hmm. I know this seems like the EXACT opposite of what I just said, but it’s not.
The problem with our potential-addiction isn’t the addiction itself, it’s the potential that we’re addicted to. We’re addicted to the potential of boys or jobs or kids or freedom instead of being addicted to the potential of more of Jesus.
Today doesn’t seem to us to have the fullness of joy because today does NOT hold the fullness of joy. We long for a different life because we were made for a different life. God made me to fill my present with thoughts of the future: an eternal future with Him. I’m supposed to day dream about the man who is God who is coming on a cloud with a sword in His hand to judge the living and the dead and those day dreams are supposed to fuel my ability to spend today in a way that honors Him.
My imagination is not an enemy of God. It is a glorious gift in the hands of a mighty Father who longs for me to want more than this life; to long for the day when my faith is cannibalized by sight.
Surely that’s the most exciting potential in the world.
Gosh. May our God give us the grace to be more excited about His return than the potential of a date or a promotion or even having a baby. May He make us addicted to the potential of more of Him.
We were talking about what it means to covet something today in school. I think your #1 goes along well with that.
Well said and a good reminder
You have just put words to something I’ve been struggling to understand for years. This is so true, and I am so appreciative that you’ve expressed it. Potential-addiction is so easily able to steal our joy if misplaced.
Oh man this is good. I’m feeling so convicted about my Pinterest account right now! But I love, love, love the reminder that imagination isn’t inherently bad. Rather, it’s a gift from God that glorifies Him when used as He intended. I can fill my mind with images of clothes I’ll never be able to afford, a dream house I’ll never own, and projects I’ll never be talented enough to make. OR, I can think upon the day when people from every tribe and tongue will be gathered around the throne of our God, singing praises to His name! How much better is that?!
WHEW, this is powerful and timely!!! Thank you! God is amazing.
As a freshman in college, this is something that I have really been struggling with this past year. Just in the whole not knowing what the future holds for me and my love life…asking questions like: “will I get married” “who will I marry” and all questions associated with marriage such as: “will I have kids”. This was spot on and what I needed! Your advice is simple but yet profound and something that I hope to seek to follow. Thank you thank you 🙂 I would appreciate any prayers.
Praying for you right now.