3 words for fabs.

I have 26 blog post drafts saved in my ‘drafts’ folder.  26 drafts.  And yet I haven’t posted for a single week because I have writer’s block.

Seriously.

I have only had a couple of minutes at a time to work on writing over the past few weeks, so I would sit down and start a new draft, but then be called away by the madness of life.  By the time I would come back to finish the draft I started, I’d lost interest in that topic. 

Tonight I’m feeling an unhealthy degree of pressure to post something on this blog because I can hear all the ‘blog experts’ in my head, telling me that I’m losing a million readers every day I don’t write.

So I figured I’d just give you an update on my life by sharing three adjectives that describe how I’m currently feeling:

1. Tired.  This sounds like a bad word, but it’s not.  I’m not soul tired, I’m just physically tired.  Since the Spring semester started I have been teaching 5-6 classes a week as well as keeping up my usual workload and writing a new curriculum.  That’s a lot.  But I’m not kidding when I say that I’m not soul tired.  I’m feeling good.  I owe that to the Holy Spirit I think.  Working in His strength is way better than trying to do this thing in my own.

2. Happy.  Guys!  Happy?!  Can you believe I would use that adjective to describe myself?!?  I came home just a few weeks ago, and finally felt ready to use the ‘h’ word to my roommate to describe my mood.  (I had been waiting until I was sure it wasn’t just something I ate.)

Nothing in my life has changed.  In fact, if anything, life has been more hectic and challenging than normal.  Yet, I feel happy.  I feel joy, real and deep, flooding through my veins.  I am thankful.  Thankful for the darkness of death that kills things in your heart that you are sure don’t need to die and forces you to beg for new life.  I am thankful for all the good and sweet things that have been lost over the past year, because each empty space has made more room for Him to move into my heart.

I decided to let my roommate provide you with the third adjective, so I just asked her how she would describe me right now, and you know what she said?  Happy.  She thinks I’m happy too.  🙂

I told her I’d already used that one, so she gave me another.  I think it’s closely linked to why I feel so happy:

3. Faith-full.  (My roommate wanted to be sure and clarify that I’m not ‘faithful’ but rather, I seem ‘filled with faith’. She didn’t want any confusion.  Thanks for that, Val.  🙂 ).  Seriously though, I feel ‘filled with faith’.  I have been prompted by the Spirit to pray more, and with that comes more of an ability to see God move.  I am feeling encouraged and hopeful that God cares about the tiny details of my day and has every molecule wrapped up in His mighty grip.

So guys.  That’s me in a box.

And that’s ‘write blog post’ crossed off my to-do list.

Please tell me what three adjectives describe you right now!

 

13 thoughts on “3 words for fabs.

  1. I am expectant (equivalent to your adjective faith-full I guess). But also, teary and a bit angry at the moment. Trying to just calm down.

    However, I am excited to hear about your joy. It is indeed inspiring

  2. 1. Weary
    2. Hopeful
    3. Spirit-filled

    I don’t know how that last one came about, but it just came to mind as I started typing. Even though I feel drained as all get-out, I know that He’s got me in His hands, and He’s carrying me through these next few months. I don’t know how, but I’m excited (and hopeful) to see how His plan plays out in my life. Thanks for blogging! Your words always bring encouragement to me.

    1. Gosh, I love so much the confusing contrast of the Christian life. Weary and yet hopeful. I know exactly what you’re describing. Thanks!

  3. Although I really love it every time you post something new, I will still follow your blog even when the days pass post-less. 🙂

    I think I know exactly what you mean when you say happy in that kind of way. I am experiencing the same. Nothing in my life has changed – haven’t met anyone, haven’t achieved a big goal- but I’ve been strengthened by Jesus to persevere on Him and allowing Him to be enough for me. And that’s where the mysterious happiness comes from. I’d add to my 3 words, awake and persevering.

    Thanks Fabs, I love the honesty and simplicity of your writings.

  4. Fabs–I just want to encourage you in your physical weariness. Your lesson on Sunday on giving God the glory in all we do (I’m in your Satisfied class by the way!) has really messed me up…in a good way! It really and truly struck a chord with me and I was able to share it all with my MC tonight. God is moving and speaking through you in ways like this that you probably will never know! Thank you!

  5. Three adjectives…
    1. Lonely. I’m at a place where I am unable to have regular fellowship with believers, and it’s making me starve for God’s attention.
    2. Weak. I feel that fighting sin is something I can’t do.
    3. Hope-full. Filled with hope, because my story isn’t over yet. And God will continue to do a good work in me.

  6. Funny, I wrote blog post with the same title for my birthday! I turned 25 yesterday — I’m looking forward to what God has in store as well. Here are my three! 1. Hopeful — who knows what God will teach me in 25? Its tough, but I can’t wait to grow 🙂 2. Immature — I can be better, go farther and aim higher in my walk with Christ. 3. Beautiful — I don’t know WHAT it is, but I’m happy with the way I look. Finally!

  7. I am going to use 4 if that’s ok: scared, lonely, lost. Pressing in to seeing God’s big picture, which leads to the 4th: Hopeful…. just trying to be honest.. 😉

  8. Your style is really unique compared to other folks I have read stuff from.
    Thank you for posting when you have the opportunity, Guess I’ll just bookmark this page.

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