Because of today

There are a lot of things to be afraid of today.  There are faces in my head of little girls on the other side of the world who have a lot of things to be afraid of today: being unwanted, being unloved, being used, being failures, screwing up their lives, being abused, being forgotten, being abandoned.

My reality is very different from theirs but it wouldn’t be a stretch to press into fear for many of those same things.

But I’m not afraid today.  At least – not for this moment. By your grace, when I believe, I’m not afraid.

I’m not afraid of being unwanted, because today is evidence that I am wanted.

I’m not afraid of being unloved, because today I remember how deeply loved I am.

I’m not afraid of being used, because today You secured for me everything I need and I have nothing left to lose.

I’m not afraid of being a failure, because today is a glorious reminder of what it means that in my weakness You are strong.  Today is evidence that my failure can earn no more punishment.  My mistakes have been paid in full.

I’m not afraid of screwing up my life, because today proves that my God holds every moment in His hands, and even sin plays into His perfect plan for my good and His glory.

I am not afraid of being abused, because today purchased for me a better possession and an abiding one.

I am not afraid of being forgotten, because today You paid a price I could never pay to buy me out of obscurity.

I am not afraid of being abandoned, because today You were forsaken so that I would never be.

This morning, yesterday, this week, I’ve been filled with the pain that comes from realizing that I am wasting my life.  I am settling for mediocrity when I have been offered a radical life filled with splendor beyond belief in You.  Normally, that would make me panic.

But because of today I don’t have to yield to a spirit that leads to slavery to fear; I don’t face that painful realization with guilt or anxiety.  I don’t have to create a savior in the form of my work or my ministry or a person that promises to rescue me from this fear of wasting my life.

Because of today I have a Spirit that cries out ‘Abba Father’, and runs into the warmth of promises that offer me refuge from all my fears.  Because of today I know that You will finish the good work You began.  Because of today I can stand on the firm rock that is your salvation in me – the hope of glory.

Somewhere on the other side of this world there are little girls to whom the gospel is really the best news they have ever heard.  God, my Abba, give me the grace to be that little girl today. Let me take hold of all that you have saved me from and all that you have saved me for.

“For who is God, but the Lord?

And who is a rock, except our God?”

0 thoughts on “Because of today

  1. Thank you. Thank you. So full of truth and beauty. Thank you for writing the Good in Good Friday. Hallelujah, what we have to look forward to! Blessings.

    Rebecca

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