I forgot all this.
I forgot that grief is not a linear experience. I forgot that just as you think you’re at the finish line you’re really just at another starting line.
It goes round and round and some days in month 3 you wake up and find yourself in day one. And everyone else in all the world works in a normal timeline where month 3 means month 3. And it’s so exhausting and confusing: to try to understand how everyone can be okay when everything is so not okay.