Boy, my dad is turning over in his grave at the title of this blog post.
If there was anything in all the world my father valued, it was training us up to be women who know how to think for ourselves. He longed for us to be women who aren’t swayed by the world or culture or our friends. (Ironically I spent years of my life attempting to appear like I was ‘thinking for myself’ just so I could please him.)
I value thinking. I love the writers and theologians who have taught me that walking with Jesus does not mean checking your mind at the door. God has no interest in developing people who are mindlessly is tossed about by whatever the new hip pastor or teacher is telling us is true. He doesn’t want me to blindly obey any person I encounter on this earth.
PART TWO: Saul goes and kills the people group, but instead of annihilating every single living creature (as God commanded), he keeps their best possessions so that he can sacrifice them to God. What a nice guy.
PART THREE: God is not happy. At all. In fact, he calls Saul’s actions rebellion, idolatry. He says that He doesn’t care about sacrifice if it comes from a heart that is not willing to obey in the details.
Here’s what we learn from Saul. God loves our minds. He wants us to use them to love Him and to seek to unde
rstand His ways. But God doesn’t want us to use our minds to think ourselves out of unquestioning obedience to His voice.
Sometimes we encounter commands that make sense, but sometimes He says things that sound crazy.
God wants us to be a people who refuse to think our way out of obedience in the details.
There are a million times and moments when obedience is illogical. So often I think that God doesn’t care abo
ut how I get to the end as long as I get there, but that’s a lie. God cares about the means as much as the end.
God gave Saul very specific details. He didn’t want Saul to just fulfill the ‘heart’ of the command
; He wanted Saul to obey in every part of the command.
God has given us instructions that are just as specific as the ones He gave Saul. He’s written t
This is such a battle for me. I am terrified to just trust Jesus and walk forward. What if I look like an idiot? What if I miss out on some great opportunity? I’m so busy thinking ten steps ahead that I can’t be faithful with the step right in front of me.hem down for us in His Word and He is not interested with us weighing the pros and cons before we obey.
But it is in these moments that faith is born. When obedience makes logical sense to me, I walk by sight. I can see why I am going where I am going and I can see why it is best.
It is only in the moments when obedience makes no sense that I have the unique opportunity to walk by faith.
Sigh. Here’s to submitting to an authority that’s greater than my mind.